sometimes i wonder why it happened to me? i am not appreciated like i should be. i am a good person to everyone in my life and still people treat me as though i am a bad person. what did i do to deserve the loneliness? i feel as though it is something i did to make it happen. today i sit in the window and i wonder. i have something good happen after all the bad and the one person i want to go to wants nothing to do with me. i hope that some day soon that will change and we can be the friends that i know we have become. you are the light in my day sometimes. i say good night to you every night and wonder if you even think about me and us and remember that what we had was real and full of love. i look at photos of you and i truly see love in your eyes. i hope that the love is not a fairy tale and that somewhere inside you there is still a bit of love for me. that love is hard to just throw away. and i know that you know what you mean to me. i just sometimes wish you could see that you are a great guy. you deserve to be with love. you are not what you see yourself as. anger is something you can control and love is something that you can believe in. so please know that love is out there. i should take my own advice sometimes and know that i am going to find that but i had it with you and it is so hard to just let it go and know that it was.