So we have a friend that comes to visit once in a while.  My mom calls him Rocky and my neighbor calls him Brian.  He is so cute and I don't think he is afraid of people.  That is funny to me.  I watched him the other day when he climbed the tree.  He is such a beautiful animal.  I love that I got so see him and watch him.  

so here i am.  years later and still looking the same and still trying to figure myself out.  a lot has happened.  i am yet again single.  i am glad to be but do miss some of the perks of being with someone.  
but i am ok.  i just want to be happy.  
i am working two jobs but i do live with mum which can be challenging.  but i get by day by day! I work at Dunkin' Donuts in Braintree and i also work at Michaels in Hanover! i love both jobs.  my manager at Dunks is a great guy.  and i love Michaels because i can truly be me. 
on march 1st i got hurt.  i busted up my knee and had to have surgery.  i am not a happy camper right now because i cannot go to work and i am stuck at home for the majority of the days.  i have the occasional day out and i am now going to PT three times a week.  so i do get out for a bit but not the way i would really like to.  but i get through.  
tese are my thoughts today.  i may come back but i was really just in the mood to use my new laptop for a bit.  <3 font="">

Change

I think I hwve to change somethings.  I have tobstngoals for myself and for sure stick to them.

~go walking..half hour a day. You can do this.  Take a camera and  go a new way each day.
~SAVE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN

WTF

I am so not sure what to do or how to approch what happened this week. I really just want to say what I feel but am not sure if it will even be heard.  That is the frustrating thing.  But If I don't I will most likely stew about it and it will mess with my mind. *I don't hate you. But if you hate me Ok* what the fuck am I gonna do with that?

Yeah..things just pop in my head

I am so tired.  It amazes me that my body hates me.  I think I got about 2hours of sleep last night.  I had to be at work at 5 and falling asleep was not happening. I really need to find a second job so that I am tired at night so that I sleep.  I wish finding a second job was easier then it has been.  I have to get up tomorrow and take that walk to the other dunks near me and see if she is hiring nights or even afternoons.   So frustrated about work. 

Ehh

So some people just wonder what if.  My what if's...
What if I never find the right guy for me?
What if I never get my feet solid on the ground?
What if I have to do jobs that or not meaningful for the rest of my life?
What if my mum really does kick me out?
What if I really can't make something of my life at 35?
What if someone finally treated me like I treat them?
What if I just want to be happy?
What if I finally think about myself before someone else for once in my life?

so it has been a while since i have blogged and i am hoping to get back in the swing of it.  i have one follower and that is all i have.  i am sure that no one really reads my stuff so i am not so worried about what i say.  although i will not use names in this thing as that can cause issues if some decide to actually follow this thing.  i am just trying to do it to get things out of my head and maybe show off some photography! i love photography by the way! 

this photo is a photo i took when i was with my friends in New Bedford...or in the area of New Bedford.  I love flowers and these happen to be my favorite! i love the colors and i love that they are lasting.  i love the all yellow ones but sometimes, once in a while, i love the two color ones.
i went to Fairhaven as well that day.  i have taken photos of this high school many times but i love the angle of this one.  it was a beautiful day for photography.  and my friends do it as well.  well she does.  he will get behind a camera once in a while but she seems to love it just like i do! i love the angles that i took the flag shot.  i have a thing for flowers and americana themes.  its  a strange thing to me. i would love to do portraits but none of the people that want me to take photos ever follow through with me and get back to me about it. 

so this is me and my camera. i love it. let me tell you a bit about me!!  i love photography.  i love kids.  kids and photography go so well together.  and i love meeting new people.  i am all around a nice person till you tick me off in some way! but other then that i am a friendly person. 

i have just gotten two, yes you read right, two new jobs.  i work for Quirk Chevrolet in Braintree MA in the office and i also work at Dunkin' Donuts across the street in Braintree from the Quirk! it is very easy for me to get to work so that is a huge bonus!  i am glad to have found the jobs. it will be a challenge for me because i have never done two jobs..well i babysat and worked but babysitting is a great thing.  i love it.  but it will be nice to have the two incomes.  i may just be able to save some cash.  that has always been an issue with me.  i cannot save for anything. well i guess that is not true.  i did save for my apartment but had someone else helping.  but other then that i cannot save for a thing.  so it will be nice. i will be able to have something for me and know that i earned it.  my goal is to find a place that i can call mine.  i think it is about time for ME! 
that is all i have for today because i have to go to work! yup! time to do the work thing.  well get ready anyhoo. 
Have a great day!