so Dan and I broke up. i think it was a coward way to get out of it and i think he was trying to do it the easy way. i love him. it will not change. i am just hoping that everything will calm down and he will soon want to be a friend. not talking to him everyday is very difficult. i need him in my life. not in the way a girl needs her lover but in the way that he had been a best friend to me for the last almost 7 years. i am a girl that needs the friends that come into her life. it is important for me to have the ones that i care about in my life because they are special. he is not an evil person and i do not hate HIM...i hate what he did and his cowardness. that is sad to me that he did not have the nerve to talk to me a while ago about how he was feeling. i have been feeling him pull away. he has been for a while i just love him to much to have actually call him on it.

TO ALL MEN OUT THERE...IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE WITH THE ONE YOU ARE WITH....TALK TO THEM AND END IT...DO NOT DO SOMETHING STUPID TO COP OUT OF IT. THAT IS A COWARD MOVE AND EVEN THE SMARTEST MAN BECOMES A MORON.

LOVE WHAT YOU HAVE AND REALIZE THAT WHAT YOU HAVE IS SPECIAL. I WAS NOTHING BUT GOOD TO HIM. I LOVE YOU DAN. THAT WILL NOT CHANGE. AND I HOPE THAT ONE DAY YOU WILL KNOW THAT I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU WANT A FRIEND. I DO NOT TURN MY BACK ON A FRIEND.