So today is the first day of twenty thirteen.  i am already not a fan. i started off my first day of the year next to my boyfriend...the only thing going for me. then it all went downhill from there. i get to work...and had to talk to someone that i am having issues with...(issues not solved). i apparently don't act my age. whatever. i know i don't...i like it that way.  but when you are listening to other people...you are never going to get the right information unless you actually go to the source of the story. that is how things should be. people want to add what they want to make a story better.  so i am done. i am not going to talk to people unless it is necessary.  i do not go to work to make friends. i go to work for the paycheck because i have to make money to live. (but that is another story all together)  
and now i have my cousins baby momma and gf upset with me about something said at Christmas. I have said two things about her and here they are. 1. when i first met her years ago, she showed up at uncle johnnys with her boyfriend (my cousin) and with my other cousin (his brother) and his gf. thats fine. but they were high...maybe not all of them...maybe i was wrong...but they all reeked of weed and i know high when i see it. and 2. i have tried to keep in touch with her via FB but i never get a response. that is all. and now i have apparently said something about her and her son. would never bad mouth someone that i hardly know and for sure never a child. 
so maybe for 2013 i should get my mouth wired shut so that i cannot talk and nothing that i have (not) said will be misinterpreted! that seems to happen to me alot. i am all done.  no talking for me. and once that happens people will think that there is something wrong with me because i am usually outgoing and loud (not gonna lie). 
i love my family and i love my friends..but i need to know that i can be able to be myself without having to document everything i have ever said to anyone.  that is not what i am about.  i am who i am...if you don't like me...? have a reason and let me know.  that is all. 
so to you 2013...please let the next 364 days be better then your first. 
thanks for a bad start to my new year!