So i think i may have been a bit pissed when i wrote this. but i had to write it. it needed to get out of my head.

ok...so i have been a good person and have not said anything. but i have to now. WHAT IS GOING ON WITH YOU????? is what i hear for real? and if so...then how long have you really been with her? i need answers and I DESERVE answers from you because we were together for 7 years Dan. and you let me find out this way? are you kidding. i need you to get the booze out of your hand...the weed out of your system and your dick out of her and sit and let me know what is going on. and what actually happened with us. i know that you were pulling away...you never talked to me. that was a big problem. and for you to tell me that i was holding you back from going out after work is bullshit and you know it. you NEVER gave me a chance with all that. i adapt to things. i would have been fine. knowing that you could have a good time and still be alive in the morning to remember. you have never seen me pissed like this. you never gave me a chance Dan. i adapt to situations. were you ashamed of me? were you scared that i would be bored and you would have to leave from anywhere we went? i was so good to you. i hope that you remember that. i want you to know that you are still a part of me. you obviously know that. i hope you do. and as for age...bullshit. that is just a fucking number...if it bothered you that much you would have said something. i think you were just making excuses. that is what i think. but as for explanation...you say you like to write...well...like i said...put the booze down and sit and write me an email and explain all that you had going on with you so that i can better understand and have closure with this. i want us to get along...but i am not sure that can happen because of the situation and how you are now. you are self destructing and no one wants to help you. regardless if you even want help. i listened when you talked. we had a good thing. i was good to you Dan. you were good to me. 95% of the time. and you know where i am going with that. i just hope that you are not into things that will get you in trouble. i do not want to hear that in two years you are dead because no one saw the self destruction that you are putting on yourself. i hope she care enough to see your bad side.. and not enable it!
March 24 2012